5 Minute Friday: In Between

By on Jun 28, 2013 in Thoughts | 4 comments

Five Minute Friday
This is my first 5 Minute Friday post.  Deep breath, and go!

There have been so many times I’ve felt like I’m in this limbo place of life.  Stuck in the in between what came before and what’s about to come.  I wrote a post about it in the final days of my first pregnancy with Carter and never had it been more obvious that I was on the precipice of something so huge, so different.

Another major in between moment for me was dealing with Carter’s sleep drama as a baby.  I would read a book about a new technique for magically making your child sleep through the night and I would hold my breath and think, “Maybe this will be the one that will work for me!  Maybe I will finally get more than 5 hours of sleep in a chunk.”  But alas, there was no magic bullet for the sleep problem, unless you count co-sleeping, which…wait, I changed my mind, it was our family’s magic bullet.  All of those sleepless nights with Carter were just the in between before I found the solution that worked for our family even if it made a lot of people think we were completely crazy.

The time before we brought Collin into this world.  Another major in between moment for me.  Scared out of my mind how it would impact Carter to have another little person in our lives.  So overwhemed with love for him that I couldn’t even fathom loving another person that much.  (Spoiler alert, I could.)

And now here I am in another in between moment.  We’re poised to start trying for our third child, which every time I say it out loud, I can’t believe it’s something we’re even considering.  People give me those looks like “do you need to have your brain checked, lady?” and I don’t blame them, because some days I can barely take care of the two I have, let alone another.  But sometimes you just have to take the plunge beyond the in between and dive in to what you know is going to be just as wonderful, horrible, terrifying, amazing and everything in between as each and every child always is.