Dear Collin at 22.5 Months

on Jul 26, 2013

Dear Collin, 22.5 months may not seem like an important milestone to mark, but it’s the age Carter was the day you were born and this time around it just so happens to be the same time we started trying to have your future brother or sister.  It amazes me when I look back at little Carter and how big I thought he was at this age, then look at you, my baby, for whom I’m unwilling to mentally flip the page from baby to boy.  (Don’t worry, I’ll get there eventually.) It’s so special to watch your personality develop as you find your voice and choose your words. Speaking of words, your favorites are:  NOOOOOO!  MINNNNNE!  STOOOOOOOP! and MEEEEEEEE!  Which goes to show that you are most certainly a toddler now, and entering into those perilous terrible twos.  After months and months of the mellow boy, you’ve decided that it’s time to stand up for...


on Jul 22, 2013

My childhood best friend just lost her baby.  He was stillborn very far along in her pregnancy, and I was devastated to hear the news.  I keep thinking of the happy little girl she was when we were friends and how very sad she must be now.  It’s not fair.  These are the moments that make me wonder why such tragic things happen to good people.  I’m usually pretty good at rationalizing why things happen, because they make us stronger, because they lead to better things down the road.  But losing a child before you’ve even had the chance to know them.  Sigh. However, this also reminded me how very grateful I am for my life, my boys.  Grateful for each poopy diaper I change because it means Collin is here, and eating.  Grateful for every meltdown either of them has because it means they’re here, and they have opinions about life.  And of course grateful for the...


on Jul 21, 2013

Having small children has taught me what it must feel like to be the prom queen, student body president and head cheerleader rolled into one.  I am the most popular girl in the world in their eyes.  It can be oh-so overwhelming at times, but I hope it lasts as long as possible.

Living the fairy tale

on Jul 17, 2013

My hubby and I have been together a long time.  Eighteen years now, to be exact, which is longer than a lot of marriages last. (Our marriage will mark half of that time this September when we celebrate our 9th anniversary.)  When we started dating, I was 14 and he was 16, which I realize now was oh-so young.  I remember hearing the old Beach Boys song “Wouldn’t It Be Nice?” and daydreaming about what our future would be like.  You know, just like everyone daydreams about their high school sweethearts, only my high school sweetheart ended up actually being THE one. And now suddenly here we are, right in the middle of this amazing future that used to be a hazy promise of what could be.  We are married and (95% of the time at least) happy.  We have a small, but cozy house.  And we have these two incredible children that WE MADE, that are part me and part him and yet...

Time to grow another person?

on Jul 15, 2013

Tomorrow my Mirena IUD gets removed so we can try to get pregnant and grow another person for our family.  As an only child, I never even considered having a lot of children (I would have been fine with one, but Glenn wanted four so we compromised at two) but even with all of the challenges, the bad days, the meltdowns (both theirs and mine), the poop, and all of the other less savory parts of parenting, the love I feel for my kiddos is so strong that it outweighs all the bads and makes me think that I actually might be able to handle this whole being outnumbered thing.  On the bad days, I really consider my sanity for rocking the boat when it’s just starting to get a little bit easier…well easier in some ways, I guess…but on the good days, I’m excited to think about what that third child will be like.  Will we finally get a girl?  Or will it be another adorable...

5 Minute Friday: Present

on Jul 12, 2013

As a work-at-home mom, I often struggle with truly being present in my children’s lives.  It’s easy sometimes to turn on the television so they are occupied and get lost in a project that needs tending, or, often, Facebook status updates from people I don’t ever see in person and blog posts from people I’ve never even met.  I struggle with needing some time to myself to tune out all of the “mama, mama, mamas” I hear all day long.  The “I want a snacks,” the “I want to watch Blue Clues.”  Sometimes I just want to block it all out and make the time go faster. But the time is already going fast enough.  I see it in the extra inches Carter grew overnight.  In the floppy brown hair on Collin’s head that we just got cut that already needs tending again.  In the way they are starting to play and interact with each other in the...

5 Minute Friday: Beautiful

on Jul 5, 2013

As a boy mom, beautiful probably isn’t the word I should choose to describe my guys, but really, I find myself saying it quite often. Carter, 3, going on 4, or maybe 34, has the most beautiful blue eyes I’ve ever seen.  With long lashes, perfect sky blue irises, and a twinkle that lights them up.  And his mind.  Oh, he has the most beautiful mind I’ve ever encountered.  The ease with which he learns things and his LOVE of learning just amaze me every day.  I’ve often wondered what geniuses are like as children, because I think I truly have one on my hands here.   And Collin, 1, almost 2, is just as beautiful as his brother.  They look so much alike that its almost disconcerting sometimes to see little Carter looking back at me through Collin’s eyes.  But Collin’s beautiful eyes are green instead of blue.  Again with the long lashes and the...


on Jun 29, 2013

As a work-at-home mom, I freely admit that my boys are fans of the television, or as we call it in our house–thanks to toddler Carter–the TVT.  (When I was little I called the cable box the Fraggle box–because that’s how I saw the Fraggles on TV–and my parents still call it that.  So I think cute names for electronics must be a family tradition.) When Carter was little, we watched Teletubbies and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse over and over and over again (seriously, I can still give you a plot summary of every Mickey Mouse Clubhouse episode, that’s how many times I’ve seen them!).  Since then I have seen every episode of WordWorld, Jake and the Neverland Pirates, Yo Gabba Gabba, and we are working our way through Blues Clues. Collin, on the other hand, is a movie fanatic.  Some of his first words include Wall-E, Wah-dy (Woody), Buh (Buzz) from Toy...